Who Am I?

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The reflection of self ends up hallow somehow incomplete in this tangled web I weave.
A shadow slipping through the cracks.
The music stops, the mask crashes to the ground.
The masquarade over.
What lies beneath?
Are you there?
Do you bleed in me?
What moves me?
What captivates me?

A little girl insecure and unsure
a young girl looking for the secret in the garden
a beautiful swan who reflects her Savior in purity
a wild woman full of passionate desire.

What do I believe?
Who am I?
Oh God do you know, oh do I know?

Am I growing into this skin or are the walls closing in.
Do I breathe to live or live to breathe?
The swirling maddening insecurity!
The confusion twists in me.
Am I complete?
Am I beautiful?
Am I sexy?
Do I fit?
Do I have a purpose?

A woman bent by age, looking back on her life.
What do I see?
Beauty or a beautiful disaster
Am I work in progress or a hopeless cause?

I live in the dark shadows of who I am,
who I think I am,
and who I want to be.
Oh how I want to be complete!
Oh how I want to be free!
The woman inside screams in me!
Am I who I'm supposed to be?
Do I even know the real me?